No Subconsciousness

I don't want to believe you.

But I do anyways.

It really could happen though.

It wouldn't be that completely unexpected.

So very deserving of someone who is always there, not just 2 or 3 times a month.

Devastating still.

I don't really know why that one suddenly popped into my head.

Just kind of a fear I have, I guess.

At least it's a rational one, not like the one about my clothes turning into monsters who strangle me as I'm wearing them...

wait...I mean, I don't have that fear.

Not rational, because I think it will happen, but because I know that if it did come to pass, it would make complete and total sense.

Right, right.

Oh crap, I'm gonna be late for class.

Wish I had more time to explain.

Have a nice day.

Or night, whichever time you read this.

8S

It...

will be ok.

Everything will be fine.

Not much change.

Or if there is, it won't be bad change.

How could it be?

If the feelings are still there nothing too important will change.

Are they still there?

I do hope so.

So terribly.

Also, read your skype.

8/

(it's a hopeful face.)

:(

8(

Goodbye!

See you again sometime!

Who needs that anyways?

Lame people that's who!

Well, I'm not going to be lame anymore!

Happy happy! Joy joy!

No hoping, no worrying!

Done!

Woo!

:(

In Fact, I Did Enjoy Them

Circle me

and the needle moves gracefully,

back and forth,

if my heart was a compass you'd be north.

Risk it all

cause I'll catch you if you fall.

Where ever you go,

if my heart was a house you'd be home.
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Implying that she's the bees' knees and I am the cat's meow.

It's funny how she recalls what I can't remember now.

But when her smile came back, and I didn't feel half as horrible,

She gave me a heart attack, just because she looked so adorable.

We both put our sunblock on, laid on the beach,

and vowed that we'd live and we'd learn.

Yea, but she got a tan and I got a sunburn.
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Interesting fellow.

:D

Fail.

:o

People...

Calm down.

Just...calm down.

Now is not the time to get all twisted into knots over little things.

Just relax.

It's not like who I'm talking to will actually read this...well maybe they will.

I dunno.

But really, just calm down, take it a step at a time.

It will ok.

:I

Update!

I feel terrible right now.

But I have to go to class.

Review days.

Just really bad feeling.

Anywho.

So, you know the word verification boxes when you are commenting on someone's blog?

I would really love to have those fonts as choices for my font.

Some of them are pretty shweet.

I wonder sometimes what it all could be.

Things go just a little differently and everything is rearranged.

Would I be here?

Would you be with me?

How would I feel?

I found 4 new Owl City songs yesterday.

I'd never heard of them before.

They were on his Ocean Eyes (Deluxe Version), the second disc.

Only listened to one, we'll see how it goes.

Next blog...if I remember...I'm going to try to not use the word/letter I.

Seems kind of tough.

Omgoodness gracious feeling horrible is in no way, shape, or form fun.

If you were wondering.

XO