Everytime

The same thing will always happen.

Why do I try to make myself believe otherwise?

Is it just some false hope that I keep for myself?

One of these days, maybe it will be different, but I don't think that's gonna happen until it's fully seen just how impossible this next event is gonna be.

All for you.

You know, it actually does get on my nerves.

When the same thing is repeated over and over, you do know that as hard a time as your giving me, I'm doing the same thing to myself only twice as bad...right?

I hate myself so much most of the time for the things I do, or don't do more often.

How can you possibly understand how I treat myself?

I really want to shout curses and throw things at my walls right now because of something.

>:(