Ok?

Ha!

No it's not ok, but I don't know what to do.

I lied to you by the way, I was doing something in particular.

I was having a debate with myself.

Which I had and have been having since like October, and my answer has pretty much stayed the same.

Yet I continue to argue with myself.

I have to leave. To do what I want to do I can't learn it here.

I guess what I'm trying to say is that I want you to be happy.

Do what you want to do.

You are entirely correct, I do want to get close to you.

But what happens when I'm in Kansas City?

Nothing?

Then what the hell are we dancing around it for?

Or does the distance make the difference I think it will?

If so, then stay away from me.

I'm not worth the pain that it could cause, I'll guarantee it.

I'll always be right here though.

Just on the other side of the phone.

Lol, I really can't say it, that's so pathetic.

And, it really destroys me, this whole predicament.

The thing that bothers me the most is that it bothers you.

I wish I knew what to do, but I just don't. I've been thinking on it for like four hours straight and I still have nothing.

I can't believe the one I want to answer the most is the one I just can't answer.

(I have no face)